we made good times

I wonder if they know how much I care and do not care? 

To be part, to be accepted, to be a friend.

Does it matter?

Being with them, listening to the same, the old and the new. Adding, subtracting, summing-up. I am there to be seen and to be heard. 

Do they care?

I do not know; honestly, I honestly do not know why they seem to care, but do not. 

A fifth when there should only be four. The exception, the accommodation, the charity, the tolerated.

Smiles, hugs, cheers and thanks; letting me be part of it, but not. 

Friendship, humour, true caring, offer something; but the dismissive is subtle, present, unintended and intended. 

Do they know?

The Greek, the poor Greek, let’s invite; should be amusing for a bit…then keep quiet. 

We are at the cottage, we made good time, now help me then stay out of the way. 

Do I matter?